Out Of The Blue

Once upon a sleepless night,

Your smile brought me back to life

From wherever I'd been

Like some kind of Sleepless dream

You pulled me from a place so in between

Now I'm on the mend

Out of the blue 

I found myself wrapped up in you

All if a sudden I'm all butterflies and happy things.  

If I'm sleepin I can be sure you'll be there in my dreams

And when I'm awake you remind me what alive means

Lovin' your goofy grin.

Don't care if it's wrong 

Just passing time Til I'm in your arms again. 

My Life In A Song

Don't know if it's killing me or making me stronger.  

These days, my days keep getting longer,

But I'm still getting nothing done.

What do I expect from life?

To keep up, just for one.

How can I move forward when this chapter's just begun?

I may not like who I've been

Straight from the beginning, all the way to the end.

The girl I dreamed I'd be...

Isn't exactly who I've become.

Now I'm trying to believe that

After all the rain will come the sun.

I'd rather feel the pain than be numb.

Don't know what to do so I write it all down.

No one to listen, so the sounds bounce around in my head.

And Despite what I've always said,

I won't ever stop wishin' on stars. 

If light can travel that far,

I can find faith and press on.

At least the world will hold something of me when I'm gone.

My life in a song.

On the rim of my eye rests a tear.

On my shoulder's the weight of the world.

Being grown up isnt half I thought it would be

When I was just a little girl.

All I know I've learned stumbling stubbornly.

And each day, I'm not who I used to be. 

When the tears fall,

they get wiped away by no one at all.

Stand on the edge of the ocean.

Might as well sail off the edge of the Earth.

Find perspective....

Find a moment to hold.

A place to find shelter when the house of cards folds.

You need a new directive.

Surely life can be at least some of what you expected.

Feel

I may not like who I've been

From beginning to end

The girls I once dreamed  if being

Isn't exactly what I've become

With the wind I've changed

And after the rain will come the sun.

I'd rather feel the pain than be numb

Day Past Deciet

If things aren't quite what you'd hoped they'd be,

Imagine how it feels to be me

Sleeping in a room I was happily called ours.

Your pictures staring back at me,

I'm so confused, still can't believe

That a lie was worth more to you than my heart in the end.

Yet you lied to me again and again,
No excuse cuz you were sober then,
Even without the booze you're not innocent.
Call out to an empty apartment,

Silence proves you're not here.

All we did, all it ever meant,

Is now as pointless as my tears.

If losing you was my greatest fear,

I shouldn't feel so scared without you here.

Fearless should have found me by now.

Lonely won't do justice for,

The solitary confinement that's in store for me.

Was so foolish to beieve,

Whatever percentage you actually met.

Why couldn't you just say what you mean?

Didn't care if you hurt me I bet.

I can't write it off saying "people change".

Huge mistake I made thinking we were the same.

Now I'm coming apart at the seams,

And these two precious little girls don't understand

what it all means...

They say they miss you and we all cry.

Wish I hadn't let you in their life,

Or in mine for that matter.  

Pieces of it are all left scattered.

Hard to keep it all contained.

Want to sit you down,

And have you explain a few things for me.

If I could trust that you would do it truthfully,

I could finally get some peace

Finally having some answers or 

at least letting you know how I felt.

You were worried about my health,

Now it's you that's killing me.

Feel so confused, on this day past deceit.  

Blessing

Unconfortability is challenging 

And life keeps is guessing 

See the change as a blessing 

For it keeps us aware 

Dear Abbey

I told a lie today

You asked what I was thinking

The ache in my heart

Didn't stop me from repeating

The usual words, I'm okay

You didn't want to hear me say

That I doubt you

And then it occurred to me

We can't go on this way but I

Just don't know what to do.

So i write Dear,Dear Abbey

Tell me what's the matter with me

Why am I asking you what I already know?

So many contradictions

Hung up on the encryption

Hold on for dear life,

If you love them let them go

Trust the voices in my head

Or the beating just below?

Fight For Love

There's a breaking point.

You can feel it drawing near.

makes the reason two pieces fit seem unclear.

Push it away, find peace in rage.

It means there's something still.

So you fight for it.

It's worth it.

Don't let it go so easily.

Don't set up a hard fall.

When you think you might be done,

They might see no problem at all.

But love like life has its ups and downs.

Balance Usually comes along.

Hold On Strong to Love.

These hard times, you can rise above.