Just Can't Win

Don't smile at me that way.
Don't pretend to be my friend.
With too many wounds to mend,
I walk away, encumbered by my shame.
It will never feel the same.
So much hate, though love remains,
We are both forever changed.
So many reasons to hate you,
So don't think that I don't.
Don't move in too close,
Don't press your lips to mine.
I hate you, and love you,
All at the same time.
Let ya know if I ever make up my mind.
You're gonna miss me,
In your own time,
And I'll have to say it's too late then.
One day, you act like my best friend,
Just to become someone I don't know again.
Like it or not, I"m sure I'll be just fine.

Because I hate you,
Because I can't escape you,
CAN'T WAIT TO MEET THE GUY TO NEGATE YOU,
I'll laugh about it then.
For now I feel stupid because I hate my best friend,
Wasting my breathe,
Because I just can't win.

Nobody

I wish I could hate you like I should.

For me, knowing you, didnt do any good.

Even more alone this time around.

So high up, so fast fell down,

And you escape unscathed.

I have so much love and rage,

I cannot sleep for days and days,

Deciding which way I feel.

The effect on me has been all too real,

Losing marbles a few at a time.

I hope that when I lose my mind,

I'll finally get some peace.

Imagining I'm somewhere Southeast,

Without you showing up everywhere.  

Why does NOBODY care?