Run Away

All these words from me to you,
Like you pick up the station, But aren't quite in tune.
But you're not on the dark side of the moon...
You're right here on the same couch, in the same room
Playing video games with a look on your face,
Like you just want me to shut up.
And I feel my cheeks grow red,
You didn't hear half of what I just said,
Worse yet, you didn't look at me once.
Seems pretty harmless now,
But in a couple of months,
You'll barely notice I'm around.
As for me, I'm lonelier than I want to be,
Even now.  Up here in the North...
But my compass points South.
The struggle is to fight the urge to find a way to flee.
Running away from me,
From people who don't appreciate anything.
Because I think I deserve better than that.
You ignore me, , They defy me,
Run to Alabama, never look back.

Homesick

Like too small a ship

In a too stormy sea

Feeling so small

Knowing I have only me.

Looking to the stars 

For familiarity.  

But they look different from here.

A distant memory having family

And friends near,

So now I make my own.  

All the drama I've outgrown

Seems to have left me estranged.

With two beautiful daughters 

I shouldn't  complain.  

Thankful for all the love I have found.

Its just that without more family around,

There's no pick me up,

When I fall down.

So I'm terrified of failing at all.

If I'm sick there's nobody to call 

To come stand in.

Not to mention how much I miss them,

If i think on it too long,

I will realize how long I've been gone.

Get homesick and cry.

Wishing to look up at a Southern Sky,

Not much to go back to,

I'm not gonna lie.

But I can't wait to go back anyway.

Knowing that I will always live so far away,

Is hard pill to swallow.

Can't take them away from everything they know,

This place has always been there home,

And I'm sure to adjust eventually. 

Make my family unconventionally,

A support system sure would give me some security.

But I still hold onto a fear,

That I will never be at home here.