Forsaken Life

Little girl only knows the ways of her little world.
She doesn't know her life is bad.
Why would she doubt the choices of her Mom and Dad?
Put out of home and bounced around,
Told everyone else was bad.
Little girl, poor little girl,
Naive for that I'm glad.

What is wrong with you?
How did you do such damage no one can undo?
Maybe I would understand if I took a walk in your shoes,
But I refuse to chance catching crazy.

At the root of it all,
Your sadness radiates.
When times just get to be too much,
You self medicate,
The pain away but just for now.
But relief, it comes too late,
Try you might to numb yourself,
As pain does lie in wait.

So why do you hold on?
Live to sleep, why do you wake?
What's the point of living,
When Life you so forsake?
We hurt for you although in vain.
With our hearts bleeding
We put your name in prayers,
But no amount of pleading,
Penetrates one so unaware.  

Never There

It wasn't a good thing.

Don't know why I thought it would work out.

Couldn't see myself moving on without

The one I thought I wasn't myself without

After all this time, you still treat me like I'm someone you could casually throw out

Though I'm wondering why my love still stands strong

I see it wasn't a good thing

You were never there to move on.

Behind the Picket Fence

Build a picket fence made of dreams and normal things,

Normal life

Follow selfish dreams until you create a new life

Born to fly aimless and free,

Abundant spontaneity.

Young life, unfocused eyes

Folkie selfish dreams until you create,

New life.

Build a picket fence made of dreams an normal things,

Normal life

And in this life sometimes it takes

Something profound to jolt you awake

To turn your perspective from askew

Change why you do the things ya do

Hello baby girl, I'm your Mommy, how are you? Let's start anew.

Getting By

On the upside of a down swing.

Six feet up from losin' everything.

Far from cloud nine, 

But better than where I've been.

Staring at far gone makes

getting by seem okay again.

Perspective

Walk with me, think of the past a while.

Long before I saw life through the eyes of my little child.

Now I'm praying for an answer to save me.

Winds are getting wild

Don't know which way I'm goin lately.

Walk with me, hold my hand a while.

I don't cry anymore.

I used to all the time.

Plea

We've done it all before

And fell flat on our faces out of love

Can we fall back in

Meet me in a good place

I can be all alone, 

Solitude don't bother me

But never being with you 

Is not who I can be.

Just for once can't my heart win

Oh, please don't leave me empty here again tonight

I tried stepping back hoping you'd pull me in

But now I'm gonna be aggressive. 

Blind Spot

My world looked a lot brighter when I young.

Now the blind spot grows daily.

Solve this conundrum.

Bite my lip just to taste the blood. 

Just me, myself and my memories

Burn away like the cig in my hand

Just me and my uses to be's

Now half to be's are all that I am.

I wish I was there

Breathing in your Alabama air.

Locked in a familiar stare. 

Holding on to something real.