Life After The Fall

He came to me right after the fall,

Before I'd found a way to make sense of it all

And I was so ashamed.

But he put up with all the ghosts

That came with me.

He loved me through my misery

and helped to heal the pain.

And to call me afraid is to understate

The sensation I tried my best to sustain

Telling myself he'd just get sick of me and leave.

I was sure he'd have enough of it and change his mind,

Not that he's exactly the quitting kind,
but I'm good at making runaways

I'm a pain in his side to say the least.

I assumed he would need a change in proximity

Because as long as he's down range with me,

He risks letting me ruin his life.

It's amazing how, without having to try

somebody like him could waltz into my life

and teach a person who's been drained, 

by life like a leech,

How to feel alive again.

I was sure that he'd soon be gone with the wind,

instead he taught me how to trust again after all.

I thought I'd be stuck against that wall forever.

Didn't expect anyone to stick around 

With fair weather long gone.
If I need him, he is always down to be what I need

I'm glad he got to prove me wrong.
So wonderful it's hard to believe.

And to think I almost tried to run him off!

Save him from myself, but at the cost of my heart

And I don't know if there's really a part of me that believes,

That the way he feels about me could remotely resemble 

what I feel for him.

All this time, I longed for a friend

Then the piece that was missing

Waltzed right in,

On a wind probably blown by angels to

Answer my prayers.

I feel that if he were truly aware...

If he could visualize the size and the scale 

Of my passion for him,

He's either run away scared or

Fall further in love with me.

But it's getting easier to believe,

That what he says he really means.

The storm, 

It isn't over yet.

Still threatened by the debris.

Worried because again I've found myself in so deep,

So soon after I nearly drown.

Come on love, don't fail me now.

I don't know that I'd ever get back to feeling whole.

I can hear my ex say "I told you so" already in my mind.

Not that he's always been the picture of kind,

But if it all falls through like it did the last time,

It's fool me twice so shame on me.

And then more of my soul would leave, 

never to return.

See, it's not so silly that I dream of being burned,

Even though, right now, things are so good.

You can't really understand,

And I'm glad cuz if you could

It would mean you felt the hurt intensely too.

I would do anything to protect you from know

what it's like.

Sure, you learn how to ride a bike and never forget how,

But you also still remember how it hurt when you fell

off and crashed down,

There's a part that always stays scarred.

It's always there,

Even if you're unaware, hurt is part of who we are.

I guess the good news of it is,

That if we can rise above this,

Then love shouldn't be hard to stay in. 

So when the doubt starts creeping in again,

Please try to understand.

I'm not accustom to such a wonderful man.