Feel Your Pain

     I know I can't be the only one.  While I have no real way of proving it, I'm pretty sure that you're all full of shit...at least a little bit.  Scrolling through my newsfeed on Facebook, I see all these shiny happy people proudly displaying proud moments and positive thoughts, and I can't help but wonder why it's the norm to pretend like everything is wonderful all the time.  At the risk of being labeled a Negative Nancy, I'm calling all of you out.  Admit it...the life you display through social media and even in relationships with most people, is all a crock of shit.  This carefully edited version of who we all are isn't who we are at all.  If you truly are Mary Sunshine and find yourself walking on rainbows every day of your life...consider yourself lucky to be the exception to the rule.  If you, like me, are a normal person who's ups also come with downs, then why isolate yourself by keeping all your problems locked away in your heart?  
     I know how it feels to be alone.  Alone, like actually alone, isn't a great place to be, but the worst kind of loneliness is the product of being surrounded by people who have no idea what's really going on with you.  We're all so wrapped up pretending to be happy that we forget to care about what is  

     Isolation...this feeling doesn't come from being completely alone, rather it is multiplied by the number of people surrounding you

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all.  People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit.  Love hurts, feelings are disturbing.  People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous.  How can they deal with love if they're afraid to fee?Pain is meant to wake us up.  People try to hide their pain, but they're wrong.  Pain is something to carry.  You feel strength in the experience of pain.  That's how you carry it.  That's what matters.  Pain is a feeling.  Your feelings are a part of you.  Your own reality.  If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality.  You should stand up for yourself and your right to feel your pain.

People think being alone makes you feel lonely, but I don't think that's true.  Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.  I guess you never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only option.