Tarnished

As I breathe each breath
The fear that I am wasting them
steals more.
Shadows lurk behind every open door.
Promising future regret.
These moments that I lived for 
have become a chore.
Just got in the car,
Already, "are we there yet?"
Frustration sucks the life
from these cherished years.
To fully give my undivided best,
Self-sacrifice,
I've been to the precipice
Forgot about all else
Aside from feathering my nest
But what am I to do
Once all the birds have flown away.
All the pieces of me, set aside,
Won't make sense any more.
All of these days of my life,
Out of context,
Could be anyone's, even yours.

Far off worries...
Right now life's so blurry
I'm afraid I'll look back like amnesia,
Nothing at all.
Keep telling myself to try to slow down,
And let the magic of their youth rub off on me.
Happiness in untarnished beliefs.