Love Is Lost

Where you used to be,

There is a hole in this world,

Which I find myself constantly 

walking around in the day time,

And falling into at night.  

I miss you like hell.

I loved you so deeply,

But for you,

Love wasn't enough.

I wasn't enough.

Between what is said and not meant,

And what is meant and not said,

Most of love is lost.

Run Away

All these words from me to you,
Like you pick up the station, But aren't quite in tune.
But you're not on the dark side of the moon...
You're right here on the same couch, in the same room
Playing video games with a look on your face,
Like you just want me to shut up.
And I feel my cheeks grow red,
You didn't hear half of what I just said,
Worse yet, you didn't look at me once.
Seems pretty harmless now,
But in a couple of months,
You'll barely notice I'm around.
As for me, I'm lonelier than I want to be,
Even now.  Up here in the North...
But my compass points South.
The struggle is to fight the urge to find a way to flee.
Running away from me,
From people who don't appreciate anything.
Because I think I deserve better than that.
You ignore me, , They defy me,
Run to Alabama, never look back.

Tarnished

As I breathe each breath
The fear that I am wasting them
steals more.
Shadows lurk behind every open door.
Promising future regret.
These moments that I lived for 
have become a chore.
Just got in the car,
Already, "are we there yet?"
Frustration sucks the life
from these cherished years.
To fully give my undivided best,
Self-sacrifice,
I've been to the precipice
Forgot about all else
Aside from feathering my nest
But what am I to do
Once all the birds have flown away.
All the pieces of me, set aside,
Won't make sense any more.
All of these days of my life,
Out of context,
Could be anyone's, even yours.

Far off worries...
Right now life's so blurry
I'm afraid I'll look back like amnesia,
Nothing at all.
Keep telling myself to try to slow down,
And let the magic of their youth rub off on me.
Happiness in untarnished beliefs.