Resentment

Am I that selfish 

Or I am I just jealous

Of your ability

To make it all about you

Even when it's about me

And I find it frustrating 

When the original point gets misconstrued 

Then the guilt seeps in

For the anger I point at you. 

The Girl Is Gone

When I'm staring at the mirror

Unconnected from reflections of a 

Person I used to love

Now I barely recognize the girl.

Things that I fear numb the best of

The vibrancy I should see in the world.

Where did she go,

When did she become so cold

Where did she go?

The girl I once knew

Who had such brave confidence

Who's limitations were few

Somewhere Far in between

here and everything

With emotions misconstrued

Wishing just to fit the mold

Seeking relevance,

Where did the girl go?

Invisible

Can you see me?

This invisibility has me feeling stranded

When The Walls Come Down

Mind set on seeing everything 

I can't reign you in

When you're looking for what else is out there

Everywhere's somewhere to begin.

You can search the whole world over

And do most everything

When you come back to find me

Don't expect me to be waiting. 

When the walls come down

And you're sifting through your past

Go back to the place in your mind

Where you saw me last. 

Chasin your own shadow 

Flickered glimpses you can't grasp 

A pretty dream diminished in the darkness absence cast.

If You think it's easy for me

You're far from the mark

I trusted you entirely,

And you trampled on my heart

All I ask is that you recognized

What you've done to me

And I'm glad I've seen with my own eyes

The monster you can be

You have to live with what your chosen

Unfortunately so do I 

I hope the pain will weaken

As more time passes by

Why did you have to be so deceiving

You totally had me believing.   

But When the walls come down

And you're sifting through your past

Go back to the place in your mind

Where you saw me last. 

Chasin your own shadow 

Flickered glimpses you can't grasp 

A pretty dream diminished in the darkness absence cast.

Damn the Unexpected

Damn the unexpected

In this life I've been subjected

To too Many things

I just wanted everything

On track and do much more 

They say when God closes a door

He open a window

Can't give you everything

Like I promised the world would be yours

Now here I'm standing

Unable to provide for my two little girls 

And the reality is that I'm trying my best 

But the failure's so real it keeps pains in my chest

So tired of struggling

I know there's somebody listening 

Insecurities overrunning me

Running circles in this life I lead

Crazy head won't let me be 

It's a reach finding sanity

But I won’t let them down...

Right now failure is the only sound

I hear dissapointment loud and clear

But I’ll run the other way

They deserve it and I’ll pay

any price it might take.

Two little hearts I’ll never break.  

Save My Pain

Save my pain for a rainy day

So much it might break me

Like the rain it won't go away. 

Need somewhere peaceful to be. 

Sing three little birds 

Think of happy times behind me.

What has become of my dreams

Of a happy ending?