Found Then Lost

You don't know what it means

You can't see what it meant 

If my ignorance remained

I'd still see you as heaven sent. 

Just like ones before you

My blatant honesty aside

You said you felt the same 

But just took me for a ride.

All once found is lost on me

What's real anymore

Loved turned worthless energy

But you're still knocking at my door

And I don't know you anymore.

Thank You Past

Whenever I fall

I always end up right where I belong.

Thank you for giving up on me.

You weren't good enough to be my everything,

And just to think, 

I thought it was my fault.

All the bullshit you spoon fed to me,

Had me looking in the mirror to see nothing,

But when I fall

I always end up right where i belong,

like in his arms.

And he taught me what it means to believe.

Now I thank you for giving up on me.

Telephone rings, 

Hello speaks a voice from your memory. 

Mind flashes back in time to a broken place,

Where a girl sits with tears rolling down her pretty face.

Torn in two by a boy who had no clue

what it meant to love.

So crazy was he that he all but forced her to believe 

She wasn't worth the space where she sat.

Voice on the line is saying sorry for all that…

and hope your life didn't turn out too bad

And she was glad to say,

"Actually, i'm on top of the world.

I'm all grown up, and gone's that silly little girl

who couldn't see

You weren't good enough to be her everything.

And just to think,

I thought the whole world would screech to a halt...

Brainwashed by you to believe it was all my fault

and I wasn't pretty enough to hold my head high.

I let you steal the light from my eyes,

But I'll never do that again.

But when I fall I always end up where I belong
like in his arms
And he taught me what it means to believe,
So no need for your apology
Thank you for giving up on me,
So I could be so loved by him.

Honest

I'm not asking what you think of me.

Not quite sure why you think I'm the one pretending.

Sounds real convincing when yours is the only side.

Give me my chance to tip the scales,

I've got nothing to hide.

It's Not You, It's Me

Never for a second thought

I'd be standing here

Delivering news to you

The sum of all your fears

As I watch all of the anguish

That I have surely caused

I pray that one day you'll know

I didn't want this all along.

Don't say you're not good enough

This isn't how it should be

I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused

Believe me, it's not you, it's me.

Degrade Me

Happy lies, truth hurts 

Degrade me a little more

Hey, man, whatever works

For you, and yours

It's so easy to point the finger at me

Say it so much that I believe

All my fault and none of yours

Degrade me a little more