Never There

It wasn't a good thing.

Don't know why I thought it would work out.

Couldn't see myself moving on without

The one I thought I wasn't myself without

After all this time, you still treat me like I'm someone you could casually throw out

Though I'm wondering why my love still stands strong

I see it wasn't a good thing

You were never there to move on.

Behind the Picket Fence

Build a picket fence made of dreams and normal things,

Normal life

Follow selfish dreams until you create a new life

Born to fly aimless and free,

Abundant spontaneity.

Young life, unfocused eyes

Folkie selfish dreams until you create,

New life.

Build a picket fence made of dreams an normal things,

Normal life

And in this life sometimes it takes

Something profound to jolt you awake

To turn your perspective from askew

Change why you do the things ya do

Hello baby girl, I'm your Mommy, how are you? Let's start anew.

Getting By

On the upside of a down swing.

Six feet up from losin' everything.

Far from cloud nine, 

But better than where I've been.

Staring at far gone makes

getting by seem okay again.

Perspective

Walk with me, think of the past a while.

Long before I saw life through the eyes of my little child.

Now I'm praying for an answer to save me.

Winds are getting wild

Don't know which way I'm goin lately.

Walk with me, hold my hand a while.

I don't cry anymore.

I used to all the time.

Plea

We've done it all before

And fell flat on our faces out of love

Can we fall back in

Meet me in a good place

I can be all alone, 

Solitude don't bother me

But never being with you 

Is not who I can be.

Just for once can't my heart win

Oh, please don't leave me empty here again tonight

I tried stepping back hoping you'd pull me in

But now I'm gonna be aggressive. 

Blind Spot

My world looked a lot brighter when I young.

Now the blind spot grows daily.

Solve this conundrum.

Bite my lip just to taste the blood. 

Just me, myself and my memories

Burn away like the cig in my hand

Just me and my uses to be's

Now half to be's are all that I am.

I wish I was there

Breathing in your Alabama air.

Locked in a familiar stare. 

Holding on to something real.

Dark Place

Ride it around, we all do.

Up and down, emotional roller coaster

We all go through

Tough times, hard times, lonely times

Times we get so low we don't even know who we are.

Never would I be so far gone

As to place the fault with you...

Mr. Glass House with a throwing stone.

I'm glad you couldn't see my face,

When you said I put you in a dark place.

I guess I should have avoided the waves.

We make them and build up the surge

Just to feel it come crashing down upon us.

Caught in the tide, 

Try to recover with grace...

Strip yourself down to your original place.

Dark or Light,

You're in control of your own fate.

You're so wrong.

Despite our differences, we're both guilty as sin.

I knew it all along,

That you were supportive of me when you didn't have to be....

But you didn't have to be

So arrogant

So Insolent

So proud and overbearing.

Wondering what they'd think,

All of them watching and staring.

What about what I did for you?

All the substance induced, indifferent abuse...

Taking care of the things you needed,

Making sure you succeeded...

And you think just because we were in the same space,

That I'm the reason you wound up in that dark place.

At one time or another 

Each of us has wondered

What's the point of it all?

But I won't claim the fault this time

So high and mighty

Polish your crown,

And look elsewhere for the one who brought you down.

Discontent

Wear my everyday smile.

Here I am so happily miserable.

Living life in hindsight,

Still can't focus,

Mind polluted by all my burdens.

Standing tall but easily brought down.

Try so hard to forget,

To be happy in the place where I sit.

Still I wind up wondering,

Blundering about what could have been.